Absent Love and Tortured Heart

All I’ve lost is why I’ve died. My soul inside, no longer alive. It hurts, it’s pain, I scream inside. But I’m alone, in all my pain. Anguish, sorrow, it is all this. The love I’ve lost, the times I’ve cried. It’s made me strong but want to die. So many, many who will leave, so much trust just thrown away. And I fear so much every time he leaves, that he won’t return to worthless me. It kills me inside every moment I’m alone. A piece, a shred, a whole me dead. All inside me is a puzzle of people, those who have lost, abandoned, and shredded me. The trust misgiven, the heart gone numb. And one by one my tears have died and a part of me has died inside. I trust no one, but love with pain, wishing for forbidden rain. His touch I crave, his smell I need, his love fills the space inside of me. But none I get for abandoned I am, on my own with no sleep, and my soul so aching, and all those people who forsake me. My aching heart is empty and alone, without the love that makes it whole. I am empty and aching, lost without my other half. I lay so alone in empty times, in the dead of night with my soul not alive. Wishing he was by my side.